MiSSiNG !!!

if you see these people tell them i miss them dearly .

& that i need them to return,

my heart feels empty with out them there.

i been gone for a minute. . .

now I'm back with a vengeance.

I'MMMMMM BACKKKKKKK !!
time wasnt allowing me to blog as often as i would like;
but im back & loving it <3>

*i missed ya'll*

Put down the pen... & walk away slowly.

im not sure how this will sound considering the fact that im a "poet".
but sometimes, (more so recently)
ive been getting so... hmm...
soooo poetry'd out that im like
IF I HEAR ANOTHER SNAP
OR "MMMM" I MIGHT KILL SOMEONE!
okay that was a bit extreme,
but does anyone else ever get like that?
sometimes i wonder if my "poet friends" are missing out on life..
i wonder when the last time some of them took a walk in the park,
or enjoyed an evening out
that didn't include an open mic,
or spitting on the train,
or a chyper on the corner.
it sounds kind of odd to say,
but there is life beyond poetry.
and you don't have to agree with me..
but its MY blog so i can say what ever the hell i want to.
so i don't really care if you agree or not :) !
but, sometimes i just wanna put my notebook on the highest shelf of my bookcase,
and just let it collect a little dust. i mean, a little dust wont hurt.
....... right?

For My One_Winged Angel.

i ran across the most beautiful pendent ever one day
while knick-knack shopping on my own.
and i went back with a pocket full of what was left of last months pay check
to buy that chain for you, but it was gone.
& i couldnt find it anywhere.
then i stumbled upon the SAME EXACT CHAIN online last night..
after our 3 hour phone call .
but last months paycheck is long gone and so is this months,
so i hope a picture will do until then.
(you know who you are.)

*btw i have the earring you lost..
dont ask how, just know i have it*

For my Soul Sister...

Do you remember the night I watched you sleep?
Peered at your smiling eyes
As you dreamt of solving life’s questions
I still remember
You told me to join you on this quest
Said that you might need me to slay a few dragons
Or save the princess he locked away in your heart

I packed my mental bags
And joined you in your slumber
Met you on the corner of poetry and real life
And you told me you weren’t sure which way to go
I whispered
Make your own path
Promised
That no matter your choice I’d be there


But I refuse{d} to walk ahead of you
This was your journey
But when your feet grew weary
I was there to lend a piggy back ride
Or there to keep you company as you rested
Never forgetting that I had my own dragons to slay
& my own princess to free
But this was about you
My older sister


Resembled a flightless angel
Hair
Covering the wings you weren’t sure how to use yet
Snowy skin
Hiding the darkened heart his empty vodka bottles left
Eyes
Small yet so big to the world


& Sister,
I’m sorry we didn’t slay any dragons that night
Nor did we unlock the tower the true you still sits in
I’m sorry,
That I can’t fix your past or erase your scars
But I’m here to lend a band-aid if you get a new one
Here to hold you while you cry
Here to listen to your heart when you’re not ready to speak
I’m here because a Tia would never be complete without her Tamara


Hand in hand
Step by step
We will take this world by storm


Interracial friendships were always my favorite
I know I don’t tell you I love you enough
But I always figured it was implied
Maybe not
I love you
My forgotten princess sister
I love you


So when your tower comes tumbling down
And your royal feet hit the ground for the first time
Remember
Your little sister
Remember
That there’s no need to cry in the dark anymore
Remember that
I’ll be here to help you graffiti heavens walls when you’re ready
Even though I’m not that good,
Just, remember I did my best.

Trip down memory lane.

So on this beautiful day i am stuck babysitting, my puppy. YES I AM BABYSITTING A PUPPY!! hes a baby just like your little sister or brother is or was! but anyway, as he takes his nap i decided to take a look through the pictures on my computer... running across plenty of pictures that made me a bit nostalgic. there have been plenty of people come into my life and then storm out and leave, leaving me confused, highly upset, and a bit broken. Two people in particular have been on my mind for a while my ex best friend Jasmine-Lynn & my ex girlfriend Jade. At one point in time they were my every things, Two Jays & a T. sigh** Jaszy was my best friend since the 7th grade, and me and jade were together since 8.21.07 and although its been a while since me n her broke up & me and jaszy havent spoken in about 6months, i still miss them both deeply. =/. sometimes i wonder if i had been the person i am now, back then would they still have been in my life....

*me & Jasz in the 8th grade. Valentines Day*


*me & Jade (our 1st picture together)*

Answer me this..

have you hidden mirrors in your eyes?

because i see

myself so clearly.

*we dont always get along;

but i would be lost without my twin sister*